it took me roughly 2 years to get here. i was taking classes and trying to get into schools (plural) and it felt like i was jumping through hoop after hoop after hoop.
praise the lord, and thankfully, i was accepted to UNC; however, since then the hoops have multiplied and the hurdles have raised several inches. i had to get this done, and have this titer taken, and buy these many thousands of books etc. in addition, once i arrived here i came to the realization my communication with the school was not up to par. living in wyoming and communicating only via email i missed several very very important details that needed to be completed before i matriculated into the program. for instance, hopefully my background check processes immediately otherwise i cannot begin school. secondly, i have to take a class i have already taken. much to my disappointment, humiliation, and additional stress i reviewed the syllabus and it entails almost identically the exact same processes and ideas i have already studied. by the way, the professor is new and has already stated this class is mostly online and we will hardly ever meet. frankly, i took this class online and now i am paying four times as much to do it again.
i guess, i am nervous enough about the rigorous program and i had hoped i felt a little more stable and secure entering into it. i need to gain a rhythm and a schedule so that i may feel successful and on my way to completing this journey and not failing miserably.
My dearest Friend... You can do it :), I know it! Just relax, please! Every day brings us closer to having you back so just do what you have to do and let's get it over with :)))). I understand it's harder than skiing every day but REMEMBER: it has been your dream and now it's becoming true. I MISS YOU!
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